Someone sent me this prayer today, and it touched me.
Life has ways to reach to me when I’m going through grey times that continuously amaze me. I’m so grateful!
Here it is:
The Knots Prayer
Dear God :
Please untie the knots
that are in my mind,
my heart and my life,
remove the have nots,
the can nots and the do nots
that I have in my mind.
Erase the will nots,
might nots that may find
a home in my heart.
Release me from the could nots,
would nots and
should nots that obstruct my life.
And most of all,
I ask that you remove from my mind,
my heart and my life all of the ‘am nots’
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought
that I am not good enough.
Author Known to God
This past weekend I went to TreeGo with my family and some of my kids’ friends. I was really enthused and looking forward to the experience. I like trying new things. We’ve seen people crossing the water on a zip line over water next to our sailboat and it looked pretty exciting. Plus my son had gone with the cadets last year and he was talking about it since. We called, reserved and were told to have sneakers on. That’s it! Pretty easy!
We were 7 and we had a range of reactions by the end of it that went from “I didn’t really like it” to “I want to do it again”. It wasn’t a consensus. Just like real life and the challenges we face as groups. The four hours it took us to do the 4 courses where an open door to view how people face challenges and new adventures. I observed caution, being pushed, being ridiculed, bragging, concentration, pushing the limits, trying to see the best, seeing the impossibility, being excited, being discouraged, taking one step at a time, wanting to be at the end of the next challenge before starting it.
As I was observing the others, I was also observing me. And I saw once more that I like to take my time, I hate feeling rushed, I’d rather do it without being observed, I want to figure it out by myself most of the time, but when I’m faced with a challenge that seems too big for me I’m willing to listen and take in another person’s experience especially if I see this person as someone with a lot of experience in this field, I like to be encouraged when I’m discouraged, I can focus and trust my abilities.
At the end of it, I felt like if I had been pushing my limits, both physical and mental for half of the time. I was exhausted and I still pushed myself to continue because I had been told that the last part was the best part. Well the best part was very short in my mind’s eye, just like when you focus on the prize and forget to enjoy the journey. I’m the one who said “I didn’t really like it” and that’s probably because I was dehydrated and hungry, pushing my body too much for something I didn’t really perceive like a real achievement, and had not check out what kind of adventure I was embarking on.
The outcome for me: I’ve been confirmed again in my strength and my ability to push my limits. Now I have to remember to enjoy the ride all the way there.
Life is good!