I have been experiencing a bit of discomfort from my hip since I did a TRE session (Trauma Release Exercise) back in October. And for the second time since then I took “Le grand dictionnaire des malaises et maladies” by Jacques Martel out and checked for what my body is trying to tell me.
Hips represent your ability or desire to move forward. Painful hips occur when you start questioning the why and how of things. You wonder if you have the right to live for yourself or if you have to continue living for everybody like you’ve always been. There is a link between this pain in moving forward and the sense of autonomy, independence. My body is trying to tell me that I have a certain stiffness, resistance and rigidity toward a situation or person, because I felt betrayed or abandoned.
I just couldn’t grasp it the first time I read it. I was in disbelief that I, Chantal, would be having an issue with moving forward in my preferred future. After all, that’s what I help people do, for a living. Since then, life has been showing me a few things that bring evidence to what I cited above. I have finally decided to get information on what is PTSD and its impact on me, my kids, my relationship because I had enough of living for my family, putting their needs up front all the time, and many times putting my dreams on the back burner. A little bit frustrating for someone like me. I like to pursue new ventures and feel free. But now I feel like I have to tiptoe my way to it. I feel abandoned because this relationship use to be about team work and spirit, and it’s nothing like that anymore. This weekend I became aware that independance to me is being in a “do-it yourself” mode because when you’re independent you can’t rely on anyone. Is this really true? No. You can be independent and co-operate with others to bring forth your dreams.
Is my body talking to me louder than I would like? Well… I know it could be worse, I could have a broken hip instead of a painful one. So, now what… what can I do about this? I started seeing a physiotherapist; have taken a different approach with my personal life coach; have seek advice from my fitness coach on what muscles I can work to get better; have been doing Tong Ren for it, have been in contact with someone that offers support to spouses of military or ex-military that are living in a relationship affected by PTSD; I’m reading more on PTSD and its effects and this new understanding is allowing me to be gentle with me, the kids and my spouse.
I think I’m on the right track… and I’m positive that the future will confirm it.
Today I was trying to get someone to understand that his knee problem he has been dragging on for over 6 months probably means more than just a sore knee. And he was virulently refusing to hear what I was saying because it would mean he had to look within for the cause.
I have known for many years that when I have a physical symptom it’s a message. Nothing happens by accident or coincidence, there is always an explanation. Humans operate on 3 levels at the same time: Spirit, Mind and Body. When we refuse to listen to our Spirit or to our Mind, which makes us aware of what’s going on through our emotions or thoughts, and the message is important and should be heard, we then start having signs in the physical world and they keep getting closer to us until they become a part of us, by being inside of us.
A few books have been written on the subject and I have 2, in french. I love them because they offer an “in-sight“ to what my body is trying to tell me, since I wasn’t paying attention to my mind or my spirit.
For this person’s knee problem, I went to check in ’Le grand dictionnaire des malaises et des maladies’ by Jacques Martel and here is what it said briefly: the knees represent my degree of flexibility, persistence and indecision. And then, depending what part of the knee is touched, the explanation as to the meaning varies. I know in the case of this person that he is facing a decision regarding his retirement. He doesn’t know if he really wants to retire full-time, part-time, when and how he should do it, etc… He is at this crossroad and it’s not easy… Obviously his body is not finding it easy either…
I believe that listening to our body and its message allows us to live a fuller, brighter and healthier life. Try it, you will be convinced!
I found 2 books in english on Amazon that could be helpful:
Heal Your Body A-Z by Louise Hay
Healing Happens with Your Help by Carol Ritberger
I have discovered Tong Ren Therapy last month at a free session given by Kathy Wilson from Healing Nexus based in Toronto, here in the Fredericton region. I fell in love with this healing modality: it’s easy, it’s quick, it’s efficient, it’s fun, and you’re not touching the person. It can even be done over the phone.
What is it? You are working with energy or chi by activating certain points, according to the health issue of the person, on the meridians on a acupuncture doll. The doll is the client’s surrogate. Everything being energy in this universe, the power of an intention or a thought is demonstrated with this tool. The client sometimes feel the energy being unblocked, or just becomes relax and warm. I tried with different persons, most of them skeptics, and 80% of them felt something while I was doing it, and felt better afterwards. Pretty good! I even tried on the phone with my brother and at one point he asked if I was tapping on “his“ neck because he could feel something and I was! Cool!
The gentleman at the origin of this therapy,Tom Tam is an acupuncturist who discovered this “by accident“ an evening he didn’t have any clean needles and a friend needed relief for her sciatic nerve. Joking he drew a stick person on a sheet of paper and stuck needles in it, and 5 minutes after she started feeling a difference. He then started trying this method and since has adopted it because he can help more people at once. People with very critical illnesses and conditions such as cancer are being treated with Tong Ren and get amazing results.
I think it’s worth a try.